So we took the test on Monday morning and it was negative. I cried a bit, but generally held it together. Jenn is my rock, and I know that she is just as dissapointed as me, but she makes sure to see the positive and show it to me. She gets me through evrything. The only thing is, is that I have yet to start my period (TMI, I know) and I am having some symptoms that can't be just in my head. It has been almost a week with my sore boobs, and that can't be ignored. We are going to test one more time on Saturday, and then if it still says negative, I guess we will wait for aunt flow to eventually show up. It might be easier to go get a blood test done, but insurance won't cover that either, so the last thing that we need right now is another doctor bill.
It feels like doctor bills are eating us alive. Not just from the IUI treatments, but from previous visits as well. Both Jenn & I got really sick a few months ago in Miami, and we had to go to an urgent care down there. Well although we have insurance, the 10% that is out of pocket is still significant when there were a multitude of tests and x-rays done and the bill is in the thousands originally. I know that we are lucky to have the insurance that we do, because without it, we would be stuck...but still... money is money.
More updates to come... for now... we wait some more.
Thursday, July 28, 2011
Sunday, July 24, 2011
What I shouldn't have done...
I got really impatient on Friday and did something stupid. I mad Jenn buy a first response test, and we took it that night. Of course it said negative. We were 7 days before my missed period, and 3 full days before the doctor said we should test, but nontheless, it was hard to see that single solitary line looking at me.
I still "feel" like I have symptoms, however minor they might be, so I have not lost hope, but I am a little less cheerfull since seeing the inevitable result. But, alas tomorrow is the day to test, and I am even thinking of waiting until Tusday morning instead, as we took the HCG shot at 9:45PM the 2 weeks prior. We will see, what Jenn thinks is best. I should've listened to her when she said we should wait... but I am a stubborn cuban till the end.
We are making plans to visit my parents next month, as we have 5 days off in a row together. I am hopeing to have some good news for them. If we are preggers, taking it easy will be of the utmost importance should we go to Disney, so relaxing on the beach during the day, and walking around disney and riding the ultra slow rides is the plan for sure. I might plan on seeing all the shows that I tend to skip in order to go one all the rides instead,
I am so glad that I am off tomorrow and Tuesday. Jenn is off on Tuesday and Wednesday, so I think that waiting until we are off together would be the smartest move. I am feeling so tired lately, it is hard to function at work, and I definitely need the rest these next few days.
Another update soon!
I still "feel" like I have symptoms, however minor they might be, so I have not lost hope, but I am a little less cheerfull since seeing the inevitable result. But, alas tomorrow is the day to test, and I am even thinking of waiting until Tusday morning instead, as we took the HCG shot at 9:45PM the 2 weeks prior. We will see, what Jenn thinks is best. I should've listened to her when she said we should wait... but I am a stubborn cuban till the end.
We are making plans to visit my parents next month, as we have 5 days off in a row together. I am hopeing to have some good news for them. If we are preggers, taking it easy will be of the utmost importance should we go to Disney, so relaxing on the beach during the day, and walking around disney and riding the ultra slow rides is the plan for sure. I might plan on seeing all the shows that I tend to skip in order to go one all the rides instead,
I am so glad that I am off tomorrow and Tuesday. Jenn is off on Tuesday and Wednesday, so I think that waiting until we are off together would be the smartest move. I am feeling so tired lately, it is hard to function at work, and I definitely need the rest these next few days.
Another update soon!
Friday, July 22, 2011
Testing 1-2-3
I have had enough with the waiting (I think). Jenn and I have decided to take a preliminary test tonight or tomorrow morning. I mean...Monday is only 2 days away, so it shouldnt make a big difference right? UGH! Decisions, decisions.
Imagined or Real Symptoms
* Really Sore Boobies
* Really tired
* Feeling a little sick to my stomach
The boobs are the major thing for me. I know I can't imagine the pain that they are in, so I guess that could be a positive or a negative. One the one hand, it could just be my period. But on the other, my boobs are usually only sore for a day or so before I get my period, and it has been 3 days already of full soreness.
I guess we will get a preliminary answer tonight...
Wish us luck!
Imagined or Real Symptoms
* Really Sore Boobies
* Really tired
* Feeling a little sick to my stomach
The boobs are the major thing for me. I know I can't imagine the pain that they are in, so I guess that could be a positive or a negative. One the one hand, it could just be my period. But on the other, my boobs are usually only sore for a day or so before I get my period, and it has been 3 days already of full soreness.
I guess we will get a preliminary answer tonight...
Wish us luck!
Wednesday, July 20, 2011
The 5 Day Wait
So, the 2WW 2/3 of the way over, and now we are down to the 5 day mark. It is so crazy to think that in just a few days, we will learn if we are mommies or not. Everyone we have any contact with that knows whats going on thinks that we are... but we refuse to get our hopes up. Yesterday Jenn & I took care of her little 3 year old cousin. We took her to the kids museum downtown, to lunch, back home to watch her favorite movie; Tangled, and then to the pool. We then gave her a bath and sat her down to watch some of Toy Story while we got ready ourselves. She was a perfect angel with us, and we loved ever minute with that little girl. This further solidified the desire to be a parent in both of us. Its funny how spending time with children can either help, or harm the feelings of wanting to be a parent.
Watching Jenn with her cousin made my eyes water a bit. She is so great with her, and I can just picture her with our children in the future. Lately I have been reading up on early signs of pregnancy. This may have been a mistake, because all of the "symptoms" I think I am having, may all be in my head. I am asking questions like "Am I just tired because I am not getting enough rest, or is it because I am knocked up!?!" I am questioning everything...not to mention I am questioning all of my food intake, and physical activities. "Did I run up the stairs too fast that I could dislodge the blastocyst from my uteran lining?!?" I feel a little bonkers with all of these crazy notions and emotions.
In the meantime... we wait. Just 5 more days... although today is almost over... so 4.5 :)
Watching Jenn with her cousin made my eyes water a bit. She is so great with her, and I can just picture her with our children in the future. Lately I have been reading up on early signs of pregnancy. This may have been a mistake, because all of the "symptoms" I think I am having, may all be in my head. I am asking questions like "Am I just tired because I am not getting enough rest, or is it because I am knocked up!?!" I am questioning everything...not to mention I am questioning all of my food intake, and physical activities. "Did I run up the stairs too fast that I could dislodge the blastocyst from my uteran lining?!?" I feel a little bonkers with all of these crazy notions and emotions.
In the meantime... we wait. Just 5 more days... although today is almost over... so 4.5 :)
Maybe Baby
July 14, 2011
Yesterday was our first IUI cycle. It was definitely interesting. We got to C.C. at about 9:15 and waited until about 9:50 for the spermies to thaw. We got to the room where the insemination would take place and got the show on the road.
***Graphic Detail Alert***
They had to use an extra long speculum in order to get past my (deeper-than-normal) cervix. This took a couple of tries, and because any sort of lubrication would affect the sperm adversely, it was a little uncomfortable. Once in place, our RN inserted the catheter straight into my uterus. Then they injected the little swimmer up into my uterus.
We stayed in the room for about 15 minuted more while I layed flat on my back to make sure the little guys made it safely to their destination. For the rest of the day, Jenn didn't really allow me to do much. My job was to take it easy and relax. This was actually exhausting. But today was back to work. I often wonder if me being on my feet for 10 hours a day would be a bad thing, but I guess I am not the first person to get pregnant while working retail.
In less than 2 weeks (on July 25th) we are going to be able to test for pregnancy with an at-home pee-stick. That day can not come soon enough as far as Jenn and I are conserned. I am trying to take it easy, and not do any hard work physically or eat anything crazy... trying to be as healthy as possible.
Not to jinx anything, but we both have a good feeling about everything, and so does everyone else that knows. I decided to tell my abuela (grandmother) before telling my mother. I would like to tell my mother only when we are preggers, and it has been confirmed and safe for at least a month or two.
For now, we wait... wish us luck!
***Graphic Detail Alert***
They had to use an extra long speculum in order to get past my (deeper-than-normal) cervix. This took a couple of tries, and because any sort of lubrication would affect the sperm adversely, it was a little uncomfortable. Once in place, our RN inserted the catheter straight into my uterus. Then they injected the little swimmer up into my uterus.
We stayed in the room for about 15 minuted more while I layed flat on my back to make sure the little guys made it safely to their destination. For the rest of the day, Jenn didn't really allow me to do much. My job was to take it easy and relax. This was actually exhausting. But today was back to work. I often wonder if me being on my feet for 10 hours a day would be a bad thing, but I guess I am not the first person to get pregnant while working retail.
In less than 2 weeks (on July 25th) we are going to be able to test for pregnancy with an at-home pee-stick. That day can not come soon enough as far as Jenn and I are conserned. I am trying to take it easy, and not do any hard work physically or eat anything crazy... trying to be as healthy as possible.
Not to jinx anything, but we both have a good feeling about everything, and so does everyone else that knows. I decided to tell my abuela (grandmother) before telling my mother. I would like to tell my mother only when we are preggers, and it has been confirmed and safe for at least a month or two.
For now, we wait... wish us luck!
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